It’s been awhile…

So it’s been awhile since I’ve written here.  I guess I just haven’t had a lot to tell the world about these days. 

I don’t know what has changed in me in the last month, but I feel lost these days.  I find myself worrying about silly little things and in my head I tend to make more out of things then what they need to be, basically blowing things out of proportion in my head.  These days I don’t know where my strength has gone, where is my happiness?  I have to find my strength and happiness again, it was here only a short time ago weeks really.  I am fine when I’m with others but it’s sitting alone in my room or car that I have the most sadness.  I want to stress that I’m not sad about my ex.  That ship and the sadness for it sailed so please don’t tell me that it’s the break up coming back in my head…I’m sad because of the uncertainty of my life right now, the feeling that I am a burden or pain to people.

This really should be one of the happiest times in my life.  I’m out dating, my job is good (or at least I haven’t been told otherwise), and I have great friends.